I"m obsessed with this blog thing. Yes I know I'm late to the party.
Anyhow, I'm already thinking about starting another blog that deals strictly with Open Adoption. My wife and I have done one open adoption already and we are currently in the waiting pool for our second. The experience we have had with the first adoption has been life changing. We have a fantastic relationship with the birthmother and a horrible one with the birthfather (nothing but trouble). Regardless of the issues we are still advocates of this process and believe that it truly is the better way to do an adoption.

All day I have felt like I 've been in some kind of mini depression. I don't know what it is but this must happen only once or twice a year at the most. So it is very odd.

The search for a minivan continues. No calls today from any of the dealers. Maybe they have become impatient with us. I'm excited about the van but I'm very turned off by the idea of a car payment. We haven't had to make car payments since at least 1998.

My sister recently lost one of her best friends to cancer and I just wrote her an email. What do you say? We just lost our Grandmother this winter but she had lived a long and fruitful life (90+). When someone who has their whole life in front of them passes that is truly sad. I hope her and her husband can come to terms with their friends passing in some way. But how do you do it. Yes you can honor that person in many different way but the pain is going to linger for a long long time.

When I used to commute 1+ hours to work I would sometimes wonder what would it be like to loose my wife. I could make my self sob with tears. What were the other people stuck in traffic thinking. They were probably just praying that I wasn't some lunatic who was about to bust into some serious road rage.

Anyhow, what do you do? How do you cope?

What happened to me today?
How can I make my life seem more appealing to the blogging masses?
Why am I looking for attention or approval from so many strangers?
Do I think this blog can take me somewhere?

Sleeping is something I have no problem doing? How can it be so hard for some people I just don't understand.

Eating, now there is something I'm good at. I'm not fat nor am I in great shape. Sometimes I'll eat out of boredom or maybe just because I want to taste the food. Also I'll eat almost anything when I'm hungry. I'd rather not feel hungry than skip eating because there is nothing good to eat. I don't think anyone really cares about my eating habits but I find them interesting. I find it interesting that I don't weight more than I do. Right now I could go for a cup of tea.

I can't believe that I ever thought a MiniVan would be cool. We I'm saying it now. That's where we are in our lives right now. I mean I'm closing in on forty (Holly S*%!). What makes my wife "excited" is automatic power sliding doors and a moon roof. It seems like such a short time a go a car that could travel more than 200 miles without breaking down was fantastic. Now it's MiniVans, family trips, and a potty trained child that really get us excited. Sounds strange but it is true. We can't wait to drive this bad boy down to the Oregon Country Fair. We may even sleep in it. It's a whole new life a strange and wonderful life and I'm loving it.

Last night our daughter performed her first "one-person" show in our living room. She's 2 1/2 and it almost brought tears to my wifes eyes.

"Ladies and Gentlemen boys and girls, La La Oooooo etc.." Then she took a bow and said "Thank you". Where did she learn this from. Her pink lip balm made for a great microphone.

Good morning. Maybe a couple comments at the computer in the morning will become my ritual. If history is any indicator probably not. Generally my interest in things such as a blogs dissipates rather quickly. Lets hope not. I can already sense that a digital camera would be a great addition to blogging and could add a lot of character to my blog. I definitely would rather tell my thoughts thru a camera than thru a lot of text. 7:00am I expect my daughter to be waking any moment.